My Inner Battle

There's always a battle deep inside of me
Something most people don't get to know or see
My heart and mind just don't get along 
They never know their roles in which they belong


Poor ole me stuck in the mist
Why oh why must i listen to this 
My heart says one thing while my mind says other
Lets not even add in the opinions of my mother


When it comes to love they all have opinions to give
I just wish they would let me live
My heart and  my mind always clash
never in harmony never do they mash


Its always they both saying pick me
Which is the only time they agree
My heart may say go for it take this risk
While my mind may say don't try this


My mother opinion is usually the tie breaker
Sometimes its the trouble maker
Her opinion might add an angle I never thought of 
That's usually when its time to ask for help from above


All in all I guess I'm lucky to have the three
Because in the end they help me see
All the sides to every situation at hand
And with that I can take a stand

My Future Husband

My love for you I cant explain
Nor can I even contain
It seems to grow with each passing day
Im just hoping like Tyrese that you'll stay


We talk about a future together 
We talk about being with each other forever
Marriage, kids, education, and traveling is the plan
At the end of the day Im just glad u're my man


I never thought that love could be this real
Even though we have just started to build
I have a feeling that you were made for me
I just know it was meant to be


Fate has definitely shown it's face
Even though things are going at a fast pace
My love for you is so strong
Even though its "socially constructed" that we are wrong


To love the way we love so soon
To others its just as real as a cow jumping over the moon
I believe that to others we are labeled misunderstood
To have this type of love many wish they could


I love you like I've known you for years
I miss you so much that sometimes I'm in tears
You make each day even better than the last
I have almost forgotten the guys from my past


Your love for me seem so enormous and true
Oh by the way I like how we both love the color blue
You treat me like a queen that you cherish
I really hope this love doesn't parish


I dont know if I could live without you in my life
I feel the need to want to be your wife
I keep telling my heart to wait and take it slow
But as the saying goes when its meant to be you'll just know


I know that this where I need to be
I just want you to never stop loving me
Making me feel so special as you always do
I promise that I will always be true


Falling for you didn't take much time
That's because you were always on my mind
Even now I keep asking if its real
When it comes to my heart you definitely steal


I will admit I fell for you hard

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Life is what you make it I always say
Life doesn't have to end with today
There are choices that we all have to make
Like what risks should we take


Love is the greatest risk of them all 
Sometimes we win and sometimes we fall
People say "It is better to be loved than not to be loved at all"
So why do some people ignore Love's call


I say because of this thing called the past
The worry of falling and then ending with a crash
It causes people to burn bridges and build walls 
Leaving love on its knees to crawl


Why should love be treated this way 
Why should love even decide to stay
This is why love will always stay away
When will people decide that its okay


To love again whole-hearted 
To feel that love hasn't departed 
It was just waiting to be let back into the picture

You're The One

Baby you are the one for me
I can explain and help others to see
But where exactly do I begin?
I guess we can start with a grin


I say that because that's what i tend to do
That's when I think, talk, or even look at you
The way you kiss me makes blush
The way you touch me gives me a rush


The feeling of being in your arms at night
Only one way to describe it feels so right 
I feel like your arms were made just for me
Like lemon slices floating in tea


We were definitely meant to be together
This love is definitely forever
Me without you should never be possible again
How much I love you where do i begin 

The Unknown

The mystery in your eyes
I can’t begin to describe
I try to figure you out
Which seems to get harder with out a doubt
I move two steps closer and you throw me for a loop
I feel like you are a war and I am a troop

In the army of frustration and confusion
But giving up is not part of my conclusion
So I push harder to solve your mystery
Hoping that one day I don’t become just a part of your history
Another notch on your belt of problematic relationships
Boy don’t you know im trying to make your heart do back flips

I want to be the solution to your problem in life
You never know I might could be your wife
I not saying im looking for marriage right now
Figuring you out is what im trying to get down
I want know you inside and out
I want to know what you are really about

How you really feel when you are with me
I wanna know what in me you see
That makes you call or text me every day
The psychological mind games you choose to play
From every intelligent conversation
To keeping me on my toes with every temptation

The question is how long is this going to last
I still got doubts from my list called the past
From being lie to, cheated on, and abused
Mistreated, verbally and physically used
I don’t know if I can take another heart break
But I guess that comes with the risk Im deciding to take


My feelings that are developing I can’t pretend
Nor do I want them to end
But I’ll be damn if I let you win
And you be added to the list of a has been
I know it seems like I want a lot
But being a woman with a good heart is all I got

So here I am trying to learn
To gain your trust I hope I earn
Trying to turn you from being my boo
To being something that’s deeper and true
But im struck in this trapped you set for me
So im trying to get you to help understand and see

Im struck in the unknown thought of you

Addiction

Eyes so deep full of mystery
Lips so soft and full of lust for me
Words so sweet they melt like heresy kisses candy
Body so strong
Every muscle wrapped in soft smooth dark brown skin
I can’t help the way you make me feel

From when I looked into your eyes
Your hands touching my thighs
I knew you had me at hello
But I played it cool and kept it mellow
I knew the trouble I was getting into
I could see right though you

The lust deep down inside
Your thoughts of me you keep trying to hide
Emotions running deep
And I can feel the heat
It rising every time im near you
You being all mines how I wish it was true

Wish I could have you here all the time
I feel your heart beat next to mine
Your rough tender embrace
Oh how it makes my heart race
Whenever the encounter ends I realize it has only begun

I can’t seem to fight the addiction

Questions

Does my status in life make me
Is all that i see is what i have to be
Can I really be whatever I put my mind to
Can what I believe really be true

Do my actions speak louder than my words

Am i lost in the crowd or am i heard
Can i be the leader i was born to be
What exactly does life really have for me

Can I really achieve true happiness and stability
Can the world truly have unity
Is it possible for me to change the world
Or am i just another average girl

Is there really such thing as a true soul mate
Is love really the opposite of hate
Does what doesn't kill you really make you stronger
Is true devotion to God make life longer

Who am i
Who are you
And exactly who are we

Can you understand and help me

True Expression from the Heart

When it seems that time is against me

When I feel blind and I can't see

When I feel that my back is against the wall

When I feel that all I can do is crawl

I turn to you



When days Im feeling sad

Even the days im feeling mad

You make sure I know you're there

You stick by my side and show you care



You are the one I call at night

You are the one I talk to before cuttin' off the light

You show and tell how much you love me

So where you are later in life is way I'll be



Being your wife

For the rest of my life

Till death due us part

Cause you know you have my heart



So this is my way to express my love

You make me feel like im up above

I just have one speical thing to say

I love you and Happy Valentines Day!!!!!

Inspired By Haters

Haters listen up and hear this
For this poem right here is something you don’t want to miss
It is written especially for all of you
To ease your mind and help you get though
You seem to have a problem with me
You have made it clear enough and plain to see
For you take the time out of your busy day
To make sure a rumor comes by my way
In the past I have shed some tears
Run to others who would give their ears
I would wonder why I was the topic of the day
And I would sit back with nothing left to say
But not anymore cause I’ve learned to be real
I started to look at my end of the deal
They hate because I have something they want or need
The hate comes from their feeling of envy or greed
But jealously gets you no where my friend
I will always be who I am in the end
Words and stories don’t hurt me anymore
Because I know that life for me has more in store
So you can hate if you want to
But it is I who knows what is true
So I made this poem not to make you feel blue
But to say my favorite words THANK YOU!!